48 hours to decide:the biggest decision of our lives!
Sometimes life throws you a curve ball and you didnt even see it coming.
As you may know if you are following, about 3 months ago we took in an almost 2 year old foster boy and have been waiting for his court process to remove parental rights so we could later hopefully adopt him. It has been a very busy and rocky 3 months with his many attachment issues and the fighting, playing and general chaos going on between our girl and this boy so close in age. We have had our work cut out for us and very small advances made so far.
yesterday we got a call from our adoption worker. We had all but forgotten we were still on the adoption matching list.
She said that We have been chosen to adopt a premature baby boy, one week old and still in hospital. Chosen out of a long list of waiting homes by that childs social worker. Wow, I was completely dumbfounded and speachless. Chosen? What if this is our little boy meant For us? Why did she choose us?
This baby will also be a bit of a legal risk. he was abandoned at the hospital a week ago and his mother was going to put him up for adoption, but couldnt bring herself to sign the paperwork. They have no way of contacting her. They still havent told us all of the details. Very important details.
Now, I have never been one to see myself with a newborn. The idea of a baby so tiny scares me. To be responsible for a life so delicate!
Knowing what I know now about attachment, what an opportunity! This almost never happens with foster adoption. To be Mom and Dad right from the hospital!
This is the hardest decision of our lives!!! We have 48 hours to decide the fate of our family and two little boys! How does one make an impossible decision like this?